tasteoftorment:

Do I want to cry, or do I want to be strong?

Do I want to give in? Or do I want to be fat and ugly, having everyone lie to me saying otherwise.

The other day, a girl attacked me at work saying that I was skinny, and that I was sick in the head.

Yeah?

That’s what being anorexic is. I have…

You’re NOT fat and ugly. I DON’T lie to you. Your weight is a PERFECTLY HEALTHY weight for you to be at for your height and age. Sure, you may be a little out of shape, but who isn’t? It’s OK to diet and exercise to be healthier. But to bend over backwards to be an unhealthy weight is just.. NOT OK. Not only with Alex, me and your other friends, but in general. Wanting to be that thin WILL kill you. Not mentally, but physically; you will have SO many health issues, your bones and hair won’t hold up like they used to, and your anemia paired with bad circulation is just a formula for death. Say you DO become that thin, people will look at you and stay away from you because they can see that you have a visible problem. You will be the reject, the outcast, the freak everyone looks at from far away. You would most likely lose friends, and {I hope not} lose Alex, too. What would you do then? Would you just not care because you’re “thin”?

Beth, you have a problem, a mental issue that’s not uncommon. I don’t mean to come off as hostile, but this scares me. There are so many ways that Humanity can fall off the successful track of Life and hit rock bottom, and that is the LAST thing I want to see happen to you, my best friend. So please, take your medicine, get help, reach out, talk to me or anyone to help you get your mind off of those thoughts of being “thin.” You want to lose weight? Fine, let’s do it together, we’ll make a contract to keep each other in check. I just don’t want to see you fall..